I had a meeting yesterday. It was not an IEP meeting, but rather a meeting to discuss the re-evaluation we will be doing to determine whether or not she will continue to qualify for an IEP going into kindergarten. What I did not know was that we would also be discussing concerns and needs for kindergarten, nor did I expect to hear the phrase "We don't have the staff for that" as many times as I did. I expected to have mountains to climb but was not expecting to be confronted with them yesterday and was not really prepared for those discussions. Now that I know the areas that I will meet resistance on, I can at least start preparing my case and finding out what rights & protections we have for those things. I'm telling myself that's a good thing. I am also hoping and praying that it will not be as difficult as I am now afraid it's going to be to get what she needs (and we are not asking for anything unreasonable), and my prayers will be more specific now that I know what we're up against.
I know I'm being vague but it would not be in anyone's best interest to discuss details, especially when we are in the very beginning of the process. Here's what I will say though. It should not be this difficult or stressful to send a 5 year old child to kindergarten and know that they will be safe and adequately and appropriately cared for at school. I should not have a gnawing pain in the pit of my stomach when I so much as think about the concerns we have for keeping Raya healthy and safe in school, and I should not have to feel like the burden of proving not only what her needs are but how significantly they may impact her education is upon me. I could go on, but for now I'm going to stop and work on getting my ducks in a row before the reevaluation testing next week.