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Living in the Woods



Parenting is hard. There is so much to worry about. Throw in complex medical conditions, and what is considered "hard" about parenting changes. The things that are at the forefront of the mind are very different for parents of medically complex children. The stresses of parenting a child without medical conditions certainly exist, and they are real and valid. For parents dealing with medically complex children, those typical worries still exist but they have to take a back burner to more basic, primal needs that keep the child alive.

The term "medically complex" is a vague, umbrella term used to describe a wide range of medical conditions that present unique challenges and require special care on an ongoing basis. There are no official parameters regarding what conditions are considered to fall under the umbrella of medically complex, but chances are that if a child requires ongoing care with a herd of doctors and therapists, he or she is medically complex. Many medically complex children have diagnoses of genetic conditions, diseases of major organs, and neurological disorders, and many have a collection of symptoms with no diagnosis.

Parenting a medically complex child means not only providing the usual care and nurturing, but also becoming an expert on whatever medical conditions affect the child. It means learning how to operate medical equipment, perform medical procedures, use the various tubes and devices attached to the child, and acquire an entire vocabulary of medical terminology. It also means preparing for any of the potential emergency situations that could arise and knowing that danger of these emergencies happening always lurks in life's shadows.

Parenting a child with any type of special needs changes the way the mind works. The blinders come off and nothing can ever be looked at the same way. Acknowledging the darker side of life does not make parents of medically complex kids pessimists, it just means they are doing their best to cope with the often ugly and terrifying realities that accompany their children's medical conditions. From an outsider's perspective, it can be difficult to understand that no matter how good a medically complex child looks, he or she may not ever really be "out of the woods," so to speak. Medications can keep symptoms at bay and special diets can help control the damaging effects of disease. Feeding tubes can ensure adequate nutrition and aid in overall health. Insulin pumps can keep blood sugars stable. Congenital conditions can be repaired surgically. All of the medical interventions that parents of medically complex children learn to administer can keep their children in a state of optimal health for their conditions, but all of that can change at any moment and wreak havoc on the most stable-looking medically complex child. In the blink of an eye, things can go from calm to complete disaster.

This is why we are stressed out and we can't ever completely relax. This is why we may find it hard to listen to people talk about the more typical concerns of parenting, and why we sometimes seem flaky or uninterested. This is why, no matter how good things are going, we have a hard time not living like we're waiting for the other shoe to drop. Even when everything appears to be safe, we never feel like we are out of the proverbial woods because mentally, we can't ever really leave the woods. It's all we've known since our medically complex children entered our lives and we can't erase the memories we've made there. We see terrifying and devastating things happen to the friends we've met while living in the woods, and we understand that those things could happen to us too. Next time, it could be us. If we seem a little overbearing, overprotective, or paranoid, know that it is for a good reason. Just as any parent dedicates his or her life to caring for his or her children, we have dedicated our lives to caring for our children but what that requires of us is very different. Living in the woods is not what we planned for our children and certainly not what we wanted for them. Since it is beyond our power to change that, all we can do is do our best to enjoy the scenery, keep living, and create a safe and happy life for them, even if it is "in the woods."


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