First and foremost, there is the peace of mind that comes from knowing that my baby who was essentially starving herself & now has no desire or knowledge of how to eat, can survive because of the feeding tube. It has literally saved her life, and that's a HUGE silver lining! This is a picture from a few days before she got the tube:
She was 2 months and 3 days old and weighed 8 lbs, 8 oz., which was less than a 2 lb gain since birth. She was miserable, I was miserable, and even though life with a brand new NG tube was exhausting and had a new set of challenges to it, the feeding tube SAVED her. As she slowly lost any desire to eat, it became her lifeline and it keeps her alive now that she doesn't know HOW to eat (or want to :).
We have seen different positives at different times during all of the phases Raya has gone through. One of the positives that hasn't always felt like a positive is the many opportunities we've had to raise awareness of what feeding tubes are for and why children have them. I think it happened more when she had the NG tube since it was right there on her face, but we do still get a lot of questions. Sometimes it's thoughtless comments from people who probably didn't mean to be hurtful, sometimes it's innocent questions from curious kids, and sometimes it's questions from people who genuinely want to know. However the questions & comments come, I love opportunities to help educate and explain to people why Raya has a feeding tube and what a blessing it's been for her. Before Raya got her NG tube, I had only known one or two other people with feeding tubes and never imagined that I'd have a child who would need one.
|2 months old at PCH|
I've always considered myself lucky when it comes to getting my 3 older kids to take medicine. They're almost always willing. :) However, if it hadn't been for the feeding tube, there is NO way that we could have gotten medications (at least 2 doses twice a day) for the past 22 months down Raya's little throat. She was never very good at swallowing her Prevacid, so I've always been grateful to have a reliable way to get the medications directly to where they needed to go.
And along those same lines, there have been times in the last 2 years when Raya's very skinny big sister has gotten sick and I have been SERIOUSLY tempted to put an NG tube in her just to keep her hydrated. All it took was Kaida throwing up a couple times and suddenly seeming very frail to help me realize what an advantage Raya's feeding tube is if she ever gets the flu (heaven forbid).
This one is kind of silly but it's actually nice to have some extra medical supplies laying around. A month or two ago Raya's big sister got sick and I thought it might have gone down into her lungs, so I pulled out the little hospital standard issue stethoscope that we have 2 or 3 of and listened to her lungs. Low and behold, one side sounded crackly and the other side didn't. I took her to the doctor and sure enough, pneumonia. Then last week, Kaida fell off of the bathroom counter and split her ear open. We just happen to have a ridiculous supply of gauze but it's hard to find other uses for gauze that has a hole in the middle and a slit in one side. It worked great on her ear while we waited for her turn at urgent care. Then there's the abundance of medical tape. I think we have some of just about every available variety and it's been used for every imaginable purpose in our house. (I plan to do a post very soon about what our favorite adhesives are and how we've used them for their intended purposes so stay tuned for that. :) They've taped pictures on the fridge, notes to kids on the bedroom doors, Angry Bird eyebrows & beaks on kids' faces for Halloween, labels on herb pots, and of course tape is Raya's favorite thing to play with. Then there was the puke bag she used for a trick-or-treat bag. :)
Catering to my lazy side, I have much appreciated the fact that when we're out & about, all I have to do is pour more formula into the feeding pump bag and push a few buttons & she's good to go. The only catch is remembering to bring everything that's required in order to do that. :)
Since we've started giving Raya real pureed food through her tube, I've come to appreciate how nice it is to be able to feed her a perfectly healthy diet. I don't have to beg & bargain to get her to eat healthy food, I just puree it and squirt it in her stomach. :) Not to say that there won't ever be an issue with that, but for now I'm just pleased as punch that I can feed her things like turnip greens and canned vegetables without any resistance. :)
I'm sure there are things I've left out. It may just be a phase that we are in and there may be more ups & downs in our future, but right now things are good and we are grateful!